Saturday, July 23, 2005
wow.. it's been quite a long time since i felt so many emotions in one day.. let's see.. stayed over at my grandmother's place on friday night cos there was some prayer thingy..everyone's like not supposed to go to sleep.. so yeah.. was stuffy, humid, sweaty and uncomfortable.. came back home at 7am..knocked out straight away.. woke up at 2pm..thennn.. slacked around on the floor.. felt damn shiok.. very relaxed.. yeah.. it felt good.. then the cable guys came over and they set up the thingy.. so now i've got CABLE TV!.. yay..it was already 5pm but it felt like 11am to me..dunno..body clock a bit messed up.. then someone tells me something about her mom knowing something..then i felt that sinking feeling in my gut..thankfully, it wasn't big shit.. showered and got ready to leave for the temple cos there were going to be more prayers.. here's where i started to feel fucked..you see, since my grandmother passed away, i've been tolerating my mother and her nonsense.. i know it's not nice to say things about your parents, but she was being a big bitch man. whole day gossip on the phone for dunno how many hours. and the bad thing is that they're all gossiping about one aunty (hopefully it's JUST ONE..).. the worst thing must be that during her "conversations" on the phone.. she repeats the same things over and over again...this repetition is the right of all senior citizens, because they have a burning desire to share their experiences with everyone around them, which at the end of the day, is a good thing for everyone. but my mom just goes on and on about the same thing..let me try to explain it a little.. let's say she says five bad things about my aunty. now what she'll do is that she'll repeat those five bad things six or seven (sometimes even ten) times..which would mean that she'd be on the phone for about a minimum of 45 minutes. so if it's 45 minutes per gossip session per day.. imagine how much i have been enduring so far.. and to think that there's a lot more to come. God help us all.anyhows, she asked me to wear what i wore for my confirmation (minus the tie of course)..so i obliged (even though i was against it cos the temple was nearby and i wouldn't be spending much time there..so i go to the temple. it was stuffy, humid, sweaty and uncomfortable.. and with my irritating cousin around, tugging at my shirt and all, i was getting really pissed off. i also wasn't able to follow the prayer service so i sorta didn't know what the fuck i was doing there la. this was the first time that i felt that i was wasting time in a place of worship. ate some food at the temple and left for home, feeling seriously frustrated. got back home.. shouted at my mom.. feel real bad about it. dunno la, i just felt so damn fucked. lack of sleep+screwed up body clock+irritating cousins+WASTING PRECIOUS TIME = a pissed off me. i just wanted to break something..then i noticed the candle on the cabinet. the one that i took back from legion retreat. and i remembered ang saying something about "finding your quiet zone when everything around you is noisy"...he didn't literally mean "quiet" and "noisy" of course.. mmm..i might light that candle tonight.okay..CABLE TV calls!! bye all.
this is why noodles came from China.
polekid farted at 9:40 PM